Changes

Life seems to be going at lightning speed lately, I've been going nonstop since mid-August and frankly I just want to sit around and do nothing for a weekend. Since August 24th I have spent 24 hours on planes, 20 hours driving and have slept in 7 different hotels. All of this was for "pleasure", as of right now I only have more tentative travel plan in the future which will depend on someone else. 

I started a new job almost two weeks ago, changed departments and somewhat changed roles at the same company. I actually have a boss that I interact with now and it’s strange, we had our 1:1 today and when I walked into her office she handed me a typed one pager that listed all of my new responsibilities. It was refreshing to have a boss that has the time to sit down and go over these things with you and not having a boss that I have to stalk into the ladies room in order to get her to approve something. It’s still been an adjustment to leave everyone I knew in my old building and now to try and make new friends in my new location; it feels like the first week of school all over again, nerve wracking. 

In the midst of all my travel and work chaos, I’m also getting a dog next week. Tonight I went into my “do not look” folder and watched a video that contained my two dogs and ex-fiancé, pretty sure that was like emotional cutting but I couldn't help myself. Thankfully with being sick right now I’m surrounded by tissues, I miss the two of them (dogs, not ex) so much and regret leaving one of them with him every day. I can only hope that this new dog will fill the void that my first fur baby left. I’m already struggling to name him, I can’t get over the name I had for my previous dog and was finally allowing myself to name this new dog the same thing. Yet, when I picked him up and looked into his little eyes, I knew that the name didn't fit him. 

I’m excited and nervous for all these changes going on in my life, I only hope that these are going to help me stay in the positive and be motivated to step back into my life and take control, I think I’m finally getting tired of watching from the sidelines.